Thursday, April 25, 2013

Summer, Please Hurry

 I am more than excited for summer to get here. Fall may be my favorite season, but I've gone a little Summer-crazy for the moment. I only have two weeks of class left, and then I'm free for three and a half whole months. And what will I be doing for my three and a half months of freedom? I have no shortage of plans. Many of them involve my best friends and the boy. We're going to amusement parks, hiking, picnicking, swimming and just general frolicking. There are also at least two camping trips planned with my family. Of course I'm going to spend a lot of time reading, trying to catch up on my 50 book reading goal for this year (the current total? a measly 10 books).

And of course on top of the fun there is going to be quite a bit of working involved: on top of my current job, I plan on finding a second job because the extra cash would definitely be appreciated. I'll probably be working nearly every day this summer, but hopefully I can still make time for all of the wonderful plans I mentioned above. I have a feeling that this just might be the best summer yet.

Monday, April 22, 2013

Love: My Definition

Well, perhaps "definition" isn't quite the right word for what I'm about to say. It's more like my take on what it means to me. But that was a little long for a title.
So many people have so many different ways to define love, and I honestly think that there is no one true definition. There are as many definitions as there are people. Here's what Webster has to say:
Love: n. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. A feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection as for a parent, child or friend.
And here's what God has to say:
 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.Love never fails. (1 Corinthians 13:4-8a)
What is it to me? Love is feeling perfectly comfortable with that person. It's laughing so hard you have tears running down your face. It's the fluttering in your stomach when you catch a glimpse of their face when you're not expecting it. It's the quivery feeling you get at night when you can't sleep because they're on your mind and the quiet emptiness you feel right after they leave. It's long conversations about the things that really matter. Love is all of this and so much more, and what makes love so special is the fact that you can't possibly put all of it into words.

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

An Explanation.

Every once in a while I'll get a strong urge to scribble, to write, to blog, but the catch is that I never know just what it is that I want to say. It's the oddest sensation: Like I'm just brimming with words, but I don't even know what they are. I go over the possible topics in my head: Spring? No. I did that a few weeks ago. Books? No. I talk about them too often already. My life? As if there's anything anyone would want to hear. A snippet? Those haven't been coming too regularly either. So I'm left sitting here, typing a few sentences of draft after draft before I give up again. I guess I'm just sitting here waiting for something to happen. And that's my lousy excuse as to why I just haven't been posting as much as usual. Maybe when school's out I'll do better. Who knows?

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Awkward | Awesome

I got this idea from Victoria at Little Words and Lessons Learned. Here's some awkward and awesome from the past week:

The power going out at work on Wednesday
Leaving my window open and waking up frozen
Dropping my phone and having the battery fly across the floor
Wanting to drink hot tea a few days ago even though it was about 80 degrees outside

This youtube video. You will die laughing. I promise.
Making cheesecake brownies for work
The fried apple things I discovered at work (to die for)
Walking around town with my bestfriend
Watching Gilligan's Island and corny youtube videos with friends and the boy

This was actually a lot of fun. I just might make it a semi-regular feature.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Snippet {10}

She rested her head on her arm and watched, mesmerized, as the tea diffused through the bag and into the water. If only life could always be this simple, she though, dropping an ice cube into the mug to cool it (she was too impatient for small sips). She spooned sugar into the mug and carefully stirred the tea into a whirlpool until she was sure the sugar had dissolved. This evening ritual was what brought her comfort, the one constant in her life of change. She wrapped her hands around the mug and brought it to her lips, drawing in the citrusy aroma before taking the first sip. She closed her eyes as the warmth slid down her throat and spread a calm through her body. These small moments, she realized, were what made life worth living.


Saturday, April 6, 2013

What Are You Smiling At?

 It's amazing how often I get asked that question. Usually, I'm not even aware that I am smiling, but there I sit with a goofy grin on my face. Usually my reply is "nothing" followed by blushing and looking down at my shoes because I've embarrassed myself again.
But then I wonder what AM I smiling at? And usually the answer is a conversation I had yesterday, the weather forecast for tomorrow, an inside joke that someone's words reminded me of. Something in my little world that makes my heart so happy that I can't help but show it. And as embarrassing as this strange habit is for me, I'm coming to realize that that's just who I am. A girl who can't help but smile because life makes her deliriously happy. And there's nothing wrong with that.

Thursday, April 4, 2013

And Yet

 It's amazing really, when you think about it. The way God cares so deeply for us. I'm impulsive. Outspoken. My phone needs an "are you sure you want to send this message?" button. I don't read my Bible often enough. I think too often about things that shouldn't even cross my mind. I relish my anger when I should be letting it go.

And yet.

This fact remains: God loves me more than I can even imagine. He sent His son to die on the cross for these sins and more. For people that don't even acknowledge Him or His gift. And that absolutely blows me away. I don't deserve love anywhere close to that. And yet there He is. I can't begin to describe how grateful I am.

I am the sweat from Your brow, but You love me anyway.
I am the thorn in Your crown, but You love me anyway.
I am the nails in Your wrist, but You love me anyway.
I am Judas's kiss, but You love me anyway.


Monday, April 1, 2013

Oh, Hey April!

I'm so glad that it's finally April. I'm more than ready. Here's what I'm looking forward to this month:
- spring weather
- my last full month of classes (!) It's so hard to believe that my first year of college is already coming to an end. I have to say that I'm not exactly sad for it to be over.
- lots and lots of school work (end of the semester projects and essays and general ickiness)
- walking in the woods with the boy

Honestly, not much worth mentioning is happening this month, sad to say. This month I suppose I will be looking for the little things.